it wasn't really until tonight that i realized how different it is raising a second child. when it was just you, we had so much time to focus on one another. for titus, i'm sure he's getting a much different experience.
tonight you are at your grandma's for an overnight. daddy is at work till late. that leaves me and titus to play and interact in closer encounters than we are usually afforded.
i came to the realization that you eat up most of my time! ha ha... titus, i'm sure, isn't used to all of this one-on-one. makes me understand that i should really be more intentional about focused interaction with BOTH of you.
i felt like i heard a lot more words, understood more of what he was saying, and shared a lot of eye contact. something peculiar, i never realized how much titus paid attention to my hair of all things! he scowled at my hair being in a pony tail, and even when i pulled it out, he still was unhappy about the side that was tucked behind me ear. What?! You both have this particularity about my hair, but i never knew he quite felt so strong about it until today. funny child.
this kind of think happens by default. but i'm sure tonight's awareness will hopefully continue and help me be a better mom and meet needs that are unique to each of you.
Dear Sadie.
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