on days like today when you have a panic attack and start vomiting all over the place, i am reminded of just how out of control i really am. i didn't know peeing in a cup would throw you down such a road of turmoil. after several minutes of throwing up and crying and attempts to calm nerves, you settled down for a breath of air. and mommy sighed relief.
i do not like to see you go through that, who does? but it's in these moments that i realize how dependent i am on the Lord, for you are His child. and i know He's got you.
later on i took you to Starbucks for a chocolate milk for your reward for the doctor trauma, and me an iced coffee. i held your hand proudly as we walked over to the brown leather couch where we drank, talked, and held each other close. i think there's no other place i would have rather have been than on that couch with you today. i'm sad it was caused by such a terrifying experience, but i was glad to be the comforter in your crisis. i hope you always know i am there for you. i hope, too, that you can trust me when i say the cup won't hurt you, and you can trust me. i think the other day when they drew blood from your arm was the worst, because there was no way to prepare you for that experience, so i didn't even try. no wonder you had such a panic attach, for all you knew you were in for another needle and 3 tubes of blood being drawn out. i'm just so glad you turned the corner and listened to me. i want you to trust me. trust daddy. know that you don't have to panic so hard. we got you. God gave us to you to protect you from harm, and we will do everything in our power to protect you, and trust Him when it's out of our control. today definitely felt like some planetary object was spinning out of orbit, but just like the brave girl you are, you came around. what a treasure you are, funny girl.
Dear Sadie.
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